My Muse as my "guardian" is my inner most need to connect my emotions, passions and thoughts to my abilities to comprehend the music I play and compose. My muse has at times driven me with a sensuality and an intellectual prowess that leaves the material world in a 'passe' state. She has aroused in me these stimulis deeply throughout the various phases in my life. It is not an addiction rather an intellectual stimulus far surpassing anything this external world around me has conjured up. In fact it leaves it in its wake and purpose. To capture a theme in music that has fully been expressed with composer intent or even in prejudicial free-form is as close to poetry and breathing (one in the same) which only one can obtain in playing Music. The construct of sound and sound alone.
My Muse is a non compromising disciplinarian that has at times brought great internal wars over ideas and objectives. The sensuality she brings to me is from the success of capturing and developing the motif in its true intent.
Apollo and the Muses on Mount Helicon (1680) by Claude Lorrain